0 '`A moment Like this.`'

it's merely a misunderstanding!

im being cursed by fade

im willing to if it lead me to my serendipity...

Lord hear me, send me an angel 2 cure my soul, my heart n my sense..

Does it true or lie, it doesn't matter as long as i feel my life alive.

It's such a sunbeam through out each inch of my body.

It burns me up, boost energy out of my pumped heart with quick tempo

im willing to feel the crown light exposed surrounded me.

Once again v spent the time 2gather the whole night

with joy & fun as u play songs 4 me with your lovely guitar.

It plays the string in my heart,deeply!

your voice heal my soul. undeniable that, your song touching indeed.

7am ++, come to the rest of the notes while it instead of the sunrise

the charming sunrise indicate the consistency of your determination

to go on the way you look for,

it same do with me.

r u my redeemer? im doubted..perhaps...

Mayb im a fool but i rather

my heart keep smiling n continue the sweet dream

your music surrounded my mind all the time.

so, let me dreaming to the end.

Gud morning & oso Gud night

Such a great time i ever had. =)

28/8/2010

0 SaWaDeeKaP ~ Sadao_Dannok_ThaiL@nD

!! 疯狂即席游!! Sadao 半日游!!

A surprising call from Tracy activate my crazy nerve in my body !

i accepted her invitation to Sadao a.k.a Dannok without a 2nd thought!

It's such a impromptu trip4 me & V hav alot of fun ther otho it jus took a few hours!

Ehm...lets understanding Sadao &>>

The border & custom

It's a small town that jus adjacent to the custom of Malaysia & Thailand!

The most excited thing4 both of us is the settlement of 7-11 sundary shop let. it's impressing me! If im x mistaken, ther r at least 4 shops at there. That plc like a pandora box, v keep on explore n many things was surprising us! The various brand with attractive package & the innovative flavor. Besides, v try the self service at there too. Tracy bought herself prawn dumpling dim sum, hot dog 1 pack, crab slide 1 pack, v experienced the moment waiting for the food served at there as there provide microwave4 us 2 reheat the food. 1 of the shop provide the bar tender4 customer sit too. nice plc! Furthermore, v shop a lot n bought ourselves some wardrobe as well. i had bought a pair of Indian style sandal which just cost rm17, like it much!! then, i spend all the money on food.

Im happy coz i able2 try many new things there as it conquered my thirst on trying new things, or it can be said im satisfied my nature of Aquarius personality on trying new things. Despite of it, i bought myself light beer, it just cost rm3! then collagen drink with adorable bottle, only rm2! Meiji new flavor yogurt,rm 1.50, condenced milk in fluid which stored like sardin can,rm2! somtam rm3! The weird rule there is 7-11 only can sold alchoholic drinks after 5pm. weird,izit?

The plc v like the most! 7-11

shop - let

Meanwhile, v saw elephant at there too,the tourist r welcomed 2 ride on it but it hav2 charge in certain rate. The special experience v went trhough were tracy 4got bring along her car gerrand thereto her car was x allowed2 enter the border. Luckily v rent a taxi2 pass by ther. but the worse thing is ther hav x taxi service at night but motocycle. So , v take the motorcycle over the border. It was fun！ haha！ Happy2 c my passport add on a chop ! yippie! my collection top up2day! v ll come again!! sawadeekap!Thailand ~

After crazy trip at Sadao, i notice a hear say email which spread out the rumour that there would be a twi moon scene appear at night around 12.30, but i din c any moon ?! 听说今晚12.30 又双·月出现即 28/8/2010 凌晨！ 有吗？He din contact me 2nite, do he angry with me? ;( 今天他是否生气我了？

A night street view at Sadao main road

~27/8/2010 ~

0 watermelon sweet!

I was depressed but it was disappearance after the expressions of happiness due to your warmest & sweet watermelon delivery!

I just merely murmuring 2u dat I'm drown in sadness bcoz my mid sem test was suck!

Then, u told me u purposely request your roomate bought me a watermelon in order to cheer me up while2 hand the watermelon 2me :D

Everything was surprising me ! touching !

Hehe* u did it babe, otho the watermelon jus a quarter of its whole piece. anyway, my life full of blossom flower since then... 0(n_n)0

The sweet & refreshing watermelon juice fresh me up! THX!

My appreciation hav no word can be expressed out4 its means.

26/8/2010

0 The days begun since U came into my Life..

Your Guitar plays string in my heart,

it's so touching, indeed..

HoPe that v c'd

getawaY with guitar~

wasting x time--;

Head2

U with no more regret！

@$%^&* @#)

*#+_DoubtFuL ; @mbiguOus ;

DuB!0uS ; PuzzLiNg ;

-------~!@#^&**()----------

VaGu3 ; ORaCuL@r ;

En!gMaTiCaL....*#+_

(*&^%$W*$)%

When I think deep

I reach into my heart

and hope to feel the other half of my soul

knowing you're not there...

U Leave a hand full of~

Love to keep in my custody....

>>what for.....?!

It Sucks m3!

Love in peace out from

the piece of love life,,,,,,,,i really

><><> do hope that ><><><

><><you r my *perfect* harmony ><><

+_+_+in my pieces...+_+_+_

Im intoxication with your every presence &

yet detoxication of your absence，

sO Plzz..say“

you will never disappear in my eye even my soul~

Whenever I'm lost in your eyes I fall for you deeper.

Just like gravity.

DroP..

TiLl..

HearT

Br0k3N 1nT0 Pieces‘’。——

Nothing is eternal but keep on chang.ing。。。

when u r gone，everything gone

Then，is the song come to the end。*

~Lie To Me.~

Tell me you're not lying.

says: "Im the 1st n be THE LasT!!"

*Btw~ i love the way U lie./*

nj0y with!n da dream..witchU ^^

Tear Drop on guitar.

WITH. LAuGH

+n - YouR SmIlE & s0und>. thereto,.,.,

happi-ness tear instead of $ad-ness,,

Coz U CheeR me UP!.,

*you're the missing part of my soul.

so fail me..

Cant Help Falling 2U~*

0 垃圾情绪~T——T’

我知道这是我自己的问题，
不懂得、不理解和别人相处的方式，
所以我不爱麻烦人家。

即使是自己最烦恼无阻的时候，
我也尽量不去麻烦人家，
我不希望自己的问题
为别人带来了麻烦。
我懂自己是个累赘。

只有在我无法再撑下去的时候，我才会哭。

当事情做不好，全是我自己的错。
只能怪自己没有学好，我不能去连累别人陪我受罪。
当所有人都认为你很厉害的时候，
他们就会很喜欢找你帮忙，你身上就会有很多责任。

看起来，这代表着这个人很能干，很光鲜，对吧。。。
可是又有谁会了解到，这个人背后面对着多少辛酸泪水呢。。。

我的外表给人很强的感觉，对我来说不是件好事，
因为我自己迟早会被这东西给活埋掉。

我的朋友，
我不愿意去开口，求助于别人，
是因为我不想自己变成对方的麻烦。

我的朋友，
我很常对你们嬉皮笑脸，我还一副无所谓的样子，
是因为我不想你们的看到的我，是那么脆弱的一个人。

我能忍，我很能忍，
只有当我再也无法忍耐下去，
我才会把情绪释放出来。

我不懂得怎么去拒绝人家，
明明知道自己已有很多责任在身，
但只要拜托我，我再忙，我都会答应。

做女生难，做我是难上加难。
有苦但无处可诉，有泪却只有自己知道，辛酸总是隐藏在心里。
自己的私事都没有处理好，这种人不值得那么多人欣赏。
我就是这种人。

0 ~爱上。没爱上~

我没有爱上你，

只是没事总喜欢看着手机屏幕等你的短信

我没有爱上你，

只是打电话时听见你咳嗽的声音会有点心痛…

我没有爱上你，

只是如果几天没有你的消息会很担心

我没有爱上你，

只是看着你和他在一起会很难过

我没有爱上你，

只是在无聊失眠的时候想得总是你

我真的没有爱上你，

只是看到你和他的说笑感觉难过又快乐

你好笨，你不懂，

每次给你发短信问你在干什么的时候都表示是我想你了

笨蛋，其实，你不知道，

每次你给我发短信的时候我都在想你，可你为什么只问我在干什么，

我怎么好意思说我在想你。

0 让我无法自拔的黑暗天使~

黑暗天使注定带来黑暗；

命运始终没有改变，也别天真的想改变。。

我甘于堕落，每晚沉醉其中，

心甘情愿让你化作我生命的终结者，

这死--我至死不渝

也不想远离你

对于你

只有无法自拔

你是我的魔力~

神秘的面纱。

揭开是好是坏？

走近了，看见了，怎么了？

倘若

了解越深，越害怕，看见越真，

；越发现不是自己想象中的美好，

哪怕有点失落，很受伤。

纵任

黑暗覆盖着那面纱

让他永远驻在最美的幻境

吉他浪子深情似无情,

he ate my heart,too deeP!

究竟，你我是因为寂寞而错爱？

宁可爱过，不愿因错爱而寂寞。

我愿保留我的天真，

任其放纵，

陶醉无间

不愿沦落人间炼狱

苦难堪

倘那时的如梦初醒

哪怕，只是半晌。

至少，爱过。

无悔，无憾。

21/8/10

>>self murmuring, a memo 4my memory installing system ;) >> ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

V met each other at lib，v spent a great time together，went through the entire noon with rushing assignment,having luncheon 2gather.As 4me,the every moment seems like a dream.i said so cause i feel vague toward myself, the inner self. how was i thought about him. i like but yet to love. the feeling is beyond or above?i have no idea at all.There was also for me the first time i saw his sadness, harsh in his deep heart whereby caused him almost cried out but yet to drop his tear,i felt sorry...his heart cross due to hurt by his dream girl.i wondered Y don't she appreciate what she had? I really do hope that i c'd be like her,beloved by someone deeply, plus, im x greedy as im x demanding! am i envying? mayb..Anyway, this called fade as everything was under HIS arrangement. the life was seemed cursed for entire human race as v hav2 suffer frm love as v love without beloved. my instinct told me that let myself rather beloved than love others. But, Unfortunately,im x always the lucky one. i have no choice either to choose or to be choose.So, keep in mind that do choose to be beloved if the god pampered u much! btw, i still will wait for the nice treat n grace from Lord! Haiz...what s'd i ask for,my Lord? nothing more, let me beloved, perhaps by him.

0 我喜欢你是寂静的

我喜欢你是寂静的，仿佛你消失了一样，
我喜欢你从远处聆听我，我的声音却无法触及你。
好像你的双眼已经飞离远去。
如同一个吻，封缄了你的嘴。
如同所有的事物充满了我的灵魂，
你从所有的事物中浮现，充满了我的灵魂。
你像我的灵魂，一只梦的蝴喋，
你如同忧郁这个字。

我喜欢你是寂静的，好像你已远去。

你听起来像在悲叹，一只如同鸽悲鸣的蝴蝶。

你从远处听见我，我的声音无法企及你：

让我在你的沉默中安静无声。

并且让我借你沉默与你说话，

你的沉默明亮如灯，简单如指环。

你就像黑夜，拥有寂静与群星。

你沉默就是星星的沉默，遥远而明亮。

我喜欢你是寂静的：仿佛你消失了一样，

遥远而且哀伤，仿佛你已经死了。

彼时，一个字，一个微笑，已经足够。

而我会觉得幸福，因那不是真的而觉得幸福。

一首很不错的诗，出自智利诗人－聂鲁达。

20/8/2010

0 |轉載|~*~我喜欢你/但我不敢爱你..。~*~

我喜欢你，那我可以凭一时的冲动为你做好多好多的事，

不计较你是否喜欢我；

但我不敢爱你，因为如果爱你，

我会期望你为我做同样的事，时间久了我会不平衡。

我喜欢你，那我可以傻傻地喜欢着你；

但我不敢爱你，因为我认为爱，

应该是相互的。

我喜欢你，那我可以一直很激情地疯狂地；

但我不敢爱你，因为爱太理智，

我总会在对比中迷失自己。

我喜欢你，那我可以默默地，偶尔跳出来吓你一跳；

但我不敢爱你，因为爱太需要一直好好表现，

永远拴住你的心，我暂时还没有那个自信。

我喜欢你，所以我才会那么多那么多看似疯狂而不靠谱的事情；

但我不敢爱你，因为你的爱太难得到，

我想留下的是我一心一意喜欢你的回忆。

我喜欢你，所以我才会默默地不做声，不期待你的音信；

但我不敢爱你，因为爱的要求总是太多，

我没有资格要求什么。

我喜欢你，所以我才想贴近你的生活；

但我不敢爱你，因为你似乎没有想要了解我。

我喜欢你，才会告诉自己要高贵一些；

但我不敢爱你，因为我不想让自己变得卑微。

我喜欢你， 但我不敢爱你。

0 转载劝世文

现在懂了，我们都要对自己好一点，因为一辈子其实并不那么长。对身边的所有人都也要好一点，毕竟下辈子我们都无法遇见了。有句话说的很对，我们都是活在一张虚伪的面具下的。我们总是用一种并不是自己想要表达的方式去表达自己的意愿，而结局往往是让我们欲哭无泪的。这样活着真的好累，与其千方百计的伪装自己，倒不如平平淡淡的对他人坦诚。当我们把那面虚伪的面具当做了我们的面孔对待别人的时候，其实我们都忘记了那逞强的笑容后面还有一张泪流满面的脸。那才是我们原有的面目，但却被我们毫无保留的隐藏起来了，时间久了，虚伪的面具就再也摘不下来了。

　　正如我们每天都在不断的练习着微笑，最后就连怎么哭都忘记了。现实就是这么残忍，不要以为不会哭了就是一件好事，如果你听过欲哭无泪的话...当然，世间无完人，再完美的人终究是不完美的人。他们太擅于伪装，好让熟悉他的人渐渐的对他感到疏远，最后他的伪装终于有了收获，身边的人一个个的远离他，然而他已不是他了。但这正是人的本性，人又时候就是这样，太远的东西总是看的那么清晰，那么珍贵，却忘记了其实最好的已经在他的身边了，只是被他残忍的忽略了。一辈子说短不短，但说长也不长。要珍惜的东西的确很多，但你能容纳的东西也就只有那么多，所以何必那么逞强呢，何必把自己看的那么大，那么累？得不到的就算了，更不要后悔，也不要留恋了。没什么好后悔的，你有没做错什么。也没必要留恋了，问问你自己你曾经有得到过吗？如果没得到过，那你又何必百般的去留恋了。这样真的好累，这就是我们的自尊心在作怪，自尊常常将人拖的很累，让人把路都走曲折了。所以，请你放低你的自尊，放眼世界，其实美好的东西还有很多。
　　

如果你也曾受伤过，那么请你藏起你的伤，因为不是只有你才有伤，如果你不想让别人触景伤情的话！请隐藏好你的伤疤，因为他要跟随你一辈子，是你一辈子的财富，是别人无法和你分享的。我知道每个人心里都会藏着一个人，或许这个人就是你心里的那一块伤疤，也许那个心里的人永远都不会知道。但他在你心里的地位是什么东西都无法替代的，所以请你好好的保护好这块伤疤，就算他被提起，被触碰，请不要让伤痛摧毁了你自己。有些东西是我们永远也得不到的，这就像彼岸花，是那么好看，又那么远。请和自己妥协，只要他过的比我幸福！

　　同时，你也不比去怨恨什么。现实就是这样，总是让人无奈，或许等你百转千回之后还是在同一个起点，毕竟现实里没有梁祝的爱情。如果你对生活失去了动力，那请你再仔细的想想，你害怕什么？你绝望什么？生活就是这么残酷，你不必去抱怨，不必装可怜，没有人会同情你。因为每个人都带着面具，虚伪的活在尔虞我诈的世界里。你要做的就是活好你的每一天，然后微笑着等待着下一个黎明的到来。即使黎明的到来是寂寞的，但你也是庆幸的，因为不止你一个人寂寞，全世界都寂寞，只是每个人的寂寞不同罢了。

　　人活着，理所当然就是要做自己，活出自己，不要太在意别人的目光与讳言。只要问心无愧，只要自己心甘情愿就可以了。可以找朋友商讨，朋友是你的良药，同时也是致命的毒药。好的朋友可遇不可求，要珍惜。话说君子之交淡如水，人生得一知己足矣。但请你别忘了，还有一句小人之交甘若醴！是啊，我们难免会感叹，知己难求啊！朋友可以有很多，但知我者谁也？我想应该就是曾经与你共患难的那个人吧。他不一定要时时刻刻的和你联系，也不需要形影不离的跟随你左右。但他一定会在你遇到事情的时候舍命相助，会在你悲伤的时候默默的陪着你，就算你们不说话，也不会感到尴尬！所以，请珍惜那个默默的陪着你，就算你们多久不曾联系，多久都不曾见面，但只要想起来就会温暖的人！他不是曾经和你一起笑的那个人，但他一定是曾经和你一起哭的那个人

quoted frm others.

0 7.9 A Mini Musical Concert

Our Gang ~ Hok Siong,Me,Jane Ong,Burnerd,Nee Jian & LiZhe

Group Singers~ vee~*

Nice2 Meet Jane~

After the function completed and back to hostel, I went to on9 and had a great conversation with my new making friend! V share a lot of opinions despite of recommended to each other of our favorite music! The long conversation on msn took us spent a whole long night while he was accompanying me to went through the times due to insomnia. BTW, he sent his own created sound track regards to his guitar playing and some of his production too. I'm impressed about it coz it was nice! I thought v spent 9hrs to chat. This was my 1st time log in msn after my lap-pie being formatted and b4 this msn had been left out 1.5years by me. Hopefully our friendship can be long lasting.~ ^^Y

6/8/10 Friday

0 10/7/10 unforgettable experience while went back home!

This weekend i went through a scary journey to back home! The story began as I was decided to go back home impromptu after Tracy offer it 2 me. The bad thing happened upon us while on the way back to Perak at High way as the car spoiled after some distance away from Juru toll. fog was coming out from the front part in front of steering inside the car with some stingy smell. Thus, v stopped the engine immediately. Unfortunately, the car locked n x able2 open!! All of us nervous and in horror. Then, v climbed out from the window to seek for help frm others. Fortunately, 2 kindness Indian youngster assisted us n called mechanical came to the scene2 help us. V nearly to b nervous shock at that moment! Huh, luckily nothing danger n harmfulness occurred on us.Thx God! The last solution was all of us sent by the High Way police / ranger to nearest toll while Tracy's car drove by 1 of the police to the toll to meet us. Then, we waited for the coming of the mechanic. The car repaired after a hour. However, v still in scary emo coz the car might burnt since the mechanic said that the car had problem with its wire where it had been burnt n melted n possibility might cause to accident of car bombed! After the repairing done, V had x other alternatives in way to get rid of the risk so v stopped for some times after certain kilometers we passed through. last but x the least, v arrived safety! As i counted the time spent for this time back home journey, v spent 9hours! the distance almost get reach Singapore! Wow~

Anyway, lets threw away those bad things. On the next day, i enjoyed family times as well ! V went to various plc2 hunt for food!My favourite!

De Garden inner building decorated wall,nice!

Our lunch were taking plc at Wong Kok, De Garden. :)

Mummy,wat u looking for?

Sisly always pretty all the time ^^

My Lovely mum & Cute sis

The fish porridge! Slurp~

It's v elastic, different with others.Must try!

Crabbing ~

The famous Crab Meat clay pot Tang Hun at restaurant wei bu tong', Bercham.

Ask for more!~

Oh my dear, christine~